Balancing Emotions

photo khalil house

It all started last week, when I showed my daughter a house I discovered on one of my walks. To be honest, I expected her to hate it. As you can see, it’s old, run down, and needs work. It also just happens to be for sale. She wants it!

I do, too, and although the $710,000 asking price might sound like a lot in some parts of the country, for Los Angeles and this neighborhood in particular, it’s dirt cheap. Not that I have that kind of money, but I choose to believe I will, and this makes my daughter crazy. She is disappointed that I can’t get this for her, but it makes her even more upset that I say one day I will have a house like this.

She says it is better not to get your hopes up because then you won’t be so disappointed in life. I say I would rather be optimistic and occasionally disappointed, then to walk around like Eeyore, expecting the worst. Round and round we have gone all weekend, with her alternating between moaning that she wants the house, and groaning that I never should have shown it to her because we are never going to have anything close to it. Then she gives me this for Mother’s day.

photo tori pic

I love it. Especially what she has written at the top.

Yesterday, she decided she wanted to go see if they were having an open house, so we drove up to the house to look at it in person. “I want it!” she continued to say, but once back home she became frustrated again. I finally told her we have to agree to disagree because while I am hopeful things will get better, she is not. All I can do is live by example and she will have to take from it what she will, but as I told her, I can’t argue with her over this. It’s too depressing to have her constantly telling me, in essence anyway, that I am a fool. I can’t wait for the day when I can say I told you so, but in the meantime, we have to co-exist in an admittedly small apartment, and I will choose happy over her teenaged angst every time.


About bridgetstraub

Author, Artist & Mom. First novel "Searching for My Wand" was published in December 2011
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6 Responses to Balancing Emotions

  1. bethany says:

    rough dilemma. optimism wins in my book (except when i can’t find mine!) but if you never dream, you never reach. hard to model it while living the realities of life on a variable shoestring … i feel it too. i have to practice my gratefulness too, it’s something i let lapse and then have to bump into a miserable richer person to realize that i really really prefer what i do have right now :). happiness is what you make it, and she sees you making the very best of what you have. that will stick with her in the long run. xo

  2. lulu says:

    Not all dreams come true, but if you wish hard enough and are patient and hopeful, sometimes they do. Maybe you have to mature a bit to know that!

  3. Catherine says:

    I guess it is proven that you’ll get what you’ve wished for. Happy belated Mother’s Day.

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